Monday, December 19, 2011

BLINK!

And so out of no where....out of the blue, an  older married-man friend of mine tells me that he realized a few months ago, that his feelings for me, are more than "just friends."

Oh....okay.  I did not see THAT coming.

He doesn't want to hurt his wife.  (later, and still...since... every time I hear these words in my mind, I'm thinking "what the hell?" )

BLINK....BLINKBLINKBLINK. BLINK.

Even if I had feelings for him, feelings that extended past "mere friendship," which I do not, he IS married.  And I value that. 

BLINK....BLINKITY BLINK BLINK.... BLINK.
He asked that I keep an open  mind.


I am wondering, about what?  About  a relationship between us?
Knowing him, the little, really that I do, I'm thinking he means to keep an open mind at the possibility of this becoming a reality.  That a loving, intimate relationship could really come between us.

I know that I responded that I was flattered that he found me attractive, that I would try not to hurt him (and thus, won't be discussing my male desires for others, to him; nor will I, at the moment, discuss my plans of moving - without him), and that really, his relationship with his wife - HIS MARRIAGE was very important to me.

I  need to tell him though, that really, there is nothing that is going to happen between us.  ASIDE from the fact that HE IS MARRIED, I do not have any romantic ~ or even a crush ~ feelings for him.   I like him, I enjoy him, and that is it. 

And really, now I do want to limit my time with him because I cannot return his feelings.  Not now, and not even if he is ...all of a sudden...single. 

I'm sorry, I am not interested.


BLINK.

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