The Jump 2012

The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be.  Because of all I may become, I will close my eyes and leap.  ~ Mary Ann Radmacher

And. so.  2012 began with me "trying" to buy the beer I said I would buy for the fella I've had this crush on for 4 months.

It was my friend's words, "I'm too chicken" for me to be encouraged to buy the beer.  Then he moved.  Then he had a beer.  Then some woman (who I know) stole him from me (ha) and gave him a shot.  And then when I finally spoke to him, he said, "I'm drunk-ish."  My friend said,  "he's drunk."  He did say goodnight to both of us.

I have been trying to live by an essay:
I act in spite of fear
I act in spite of doubt
I act in spite of worry
I act in spite of inconvienience
I act in spite of discomfort
I act when I am not in the mood....

I acted. Yes, it was better than wondering, trying to figure it all out.

And when I got home, I recalled other words from a friend.  IN "love," there is no wrong, there is no right or wrong answer, way, being.  There just is.  Its just whatever it is at the moment.

The Jump, 2012.