Digger Dave

Dave has sort of dug himself a hole without really meaning to. Though what does it say about me? He is probably a perfectly good person, but I really don't want him already. I'm trying NOT to write him off, even though he wanted to know the day of April I was born - since I'm an Aries. He wants to know what the "numbers and letters" in my "pen name" mean - they simply refer to the 2 people I love THE MOST...and then why my range of men was 417 miles. Well, if you look at it all, the answers are RIGHT there. And yes, I would look at them. Yet, in reality.... none of it matters. Or maybe it does, either way....think about it, Dave. He also noted to me, that I hadn't signed my most recent email with "Toodles." Nope, I didn't. I was merely answering the question, moving on.

I am getting a little more level headed.

The LOW Down

The low down...kind of like oral sex, what they don't tell you....

Not only from my date this weekend, but also from other men whom I've had recent conversations from, the low down on online dating is that it is difficult. No way around it. And one might think to have ALL these people in front of you, WOW...like picking the perfect peach.

Nope. You wink, you send emails - they don't respond. They don't even act like you've been there. You don't know. And then you go to check them out again, and they aren't there. Their profile is gone. For whatever reason, they no longer are online. Maybe they got married, most likely they didn't. They just stopped paying for the service.

Or you meet them, and they are NOTHING like they said they were. Which, I have to say, I have experienced that.... more times than not.

Tonight I was YM with a guy I met on a site; he lives rather close to me. I think he is okay, I'm not at the RED Flag point, even though he asked me if I would FACEBOOK Friend him so that he could have more friends on Farmville.

No.... for many reasons. One being, that we haven't met. Two being, really? Thats NOT why I have friends on Facebook. He wasn't mad that I said no, nor did he want me to be mad. I wasn't. Just sort of re-thinking this maybe maturity level?

Its not that I have a problem with people playing Farmville or any other game online. I don't. But you don't become friends on Facebook just for more points.

I did talk to Joe, from online today. He bit the dust; I don't know that he knows it. It isn't that I don't understand where he is coming from (at 50) of how if you get into a relationship with someone who doesn't have children, you don't have that to contend with. I get that. But he was surprised at how many of us women would accept children, whereas men might not. Again, though, he's never been married and there is a reason. I even told him that; I told him that had he really wanted to get married by now, he would have. He was either too busy building his business or something... personally I think he was too busy on himself (thinking he was Joe Great) to make the necessary gives and takes for a relationship.

I am having dinner with ... Dave? on Thursday. I am actually only having dinner with him: 1) because my friend (who met her husband online) told me that I should consider people I am initially NOT at all interested in - which I don't disagree with, and 2) he's persistent, and 3) my other friend advised me to let a man buy me dinner. I can't say that I am uninterested in him, though he certainly isn't in my top 5.

The main thing in all this, to maintain my level head (which my Powell friend would tell you, I don't have one)

And the old men in my life, in which there are two - two men that I have not been physical/sexual with and NEVER plan on being either with - though I know they like me in some degree.... they probably both sense something is up with me (since I was gone for the weekend - and had a great time), but its none of their business. I have led neither of them on, I have been upfront with them, and finally, I am not going to settle because of THEIR feelings.

You just never can tell.....

Actually, no... I have to take a moment to say this....because I have to remind myself daily. You just never can tell. You just never know what the future holds, what will change, what will be.

While I don't like to compare a lot of things to my marriage with Bill, I can compare things to my dating Bill. I met him, he took my name and number and then I went on with life. I didn't know if I would ever see him again and I wasn't going to let it matter. I wasn't going to care. And about 2 weeks later, he called me. I couldn't remember even what he looked like.

And so I have to continue to treat this dating, online, the very same way. Actually I have to continue to treat all dating the same way. Enjoy but don't marry already.

Male Irritation

I had a great date over the weekend, time will tell.

I need to write more, but I don't have time at the moment.

Across Seas

Oh, I did forget.... I met 2 guys on the "buying site" (the site that you have to pay for).
One, Mark, works in the CBM industry and apparently has had to go to Australia, IMMEDIATELY. He loves me, I've made his whole damn world. Ya... get lost in Australia.

The other... Danny. I like him; could really like him, though I get the sense that he is lonely. And that, yes, scares me, a bit. Though I do really like him.

And then there is some guy just checking things out, that I haven't given much time to. He's not in the states AT ALL. Who knows....

Across the seas, its all an adventure.

ADVENTURE!!

Remember, self, this is an adventure! You have no idea where the road is going to take you, you might not even like the road once you get on there and have to turn back! or at least part of the way home!

Oh what has happened... I don't want to tell you. I'm ashamed - yes. I'm HOW old and I act like I'm 12. Why would any MAN want me, when I act so... silly. Stupid. Yet not.

Okay, so why go after some guy that only wants a woman within 100 miles from him? Some guy who really hasn't asked you much about yourself. Some guy who clearly needs a woman to be creative, because his creativeness doesn't venture past Riverton and gambling (at this point, I'd venture to say it might...but who really knows).

I've had great emails from BCody and K-ND. Nice, real, get to know you emails. Both men, I might add, are looking past their noses. Now, I have someone in Rapid City, who has a darling picture with a girl - it looks like he's having a real conversation with an 8 year old. It is so sweet it melts my heart. He doesn't think I look my age (most people don't). So, there's a chance opening. I have some Short "Still Here" guy who I haven't seen and at the moment, am uninterested. Perhaps because he is 5' 7". Ya, I'm looking for taller. And then PacificWaterman. Who at the moment, we are looking at a time to meet in Big Timber at the KOA - play some putt putt...maybe throw the nerf football! And if things SPARK, I won't have to go dutch with him. NO pressure there. :)

In the meantime, I told Crotchedy JA that I was looking for a man - not really a specific man - though specific in that someone of interest....someone to kiss. I guess you could say I broke up with CJA without realizing it; I say this because he is now on one of my "free 'dating' sites". I'm not over joyed about it, though he is out of my age range.

Yes, remember this is an adventure. Its to be fun. Not OMG. Except that I did email Pinedale and basically said, "I'll be in your town, how do I get a hold of you? and its your choice as to whether or not you meet me." ODG! I want to say "what was I thinking?" Who the hell knows. Well, that's not true. I know what I'm thinking. And yet, do I? Oh, its just an adventure. Let it go where it may.

Its an adventure. And definitely time to go to bed.

Wilson Bit The Dust...HARD

So in the past 4 days, I had IM (buzz) a guy named Wilson. Last night, though, I knew that I really wanted nothing more to do with him. Mainly because we hadn't gotten past "are u for real?" His question to me, over and over again. His other questions, "can I give you my heart, babe?" just made me want to THROW up. What the hell is he talking about? Get REAL.

I deleted him from my contacts last night; alas I got 3 other "dings" from him. Finally this afternoon, I responded. I just said, "I don't think we are meant to be." Of course, I got "why do you think that?"

I know I should have ended last night; not respond at all. I suppose after teling Mexican boy to beat it, that little bit of self doubt crept in. So we discussed it. And now, I have no doubt. END THIS

So, I asked him if he had any siblings, since his parents had died? >> No.
Did he have any relatives that he was close to? >> No
Were his parents only children? >> Apparently yes.
I stopped that line of questioning and went to, do you have any friends that you are close to? >> No.
A secretary, a co-worker that you share a joke with, or coffee with? >> Yes, but they aren't friends. Friends are bad.

HUH? Friends are bad? How does one live without friends?

I told him I would have died by now without friends, and that in the end...after the physical, etc. goes, all we have is friendship - I hope.

So then he asked me if I was ready to make "our dream real."
I asked what "our 'dream'" was. He said, "love."

That all he wanted was LOVE and LOVE. (What is Love?)

That of course, helped solidify that I hated this guy. For 1) there is NO "our" or "us" because he doesn't know me. 2) My dream is not "love." Wilson talked as though Love was this thing to be captured like a butterfly.

So I told him that I didn't think we had the same dream. He told me that we did, its just that I was being PUSHY!

Ha, I've never been called PUSHY!

He told me that I needed to be cool headed; to which I responded, "obviously there isn't a we, since he doesn't know if I can be cool headed or not."

Eventually I got it across that I didn't want the same things, or him and I wanted him to leave me alone.
He responded, "can't we be friends?" (huh, you don't believe in friendships)...
He added, "with an agreement?"

I said "No."

And he responded with, "bye....Go and Die"


Since this turn of events, I've talked to 2 people. A friend who met her husband online and another friend. They both suggested that this guy could easily be in prison. Yippee for me. OMG!