High Hopes?

I really don't want to write, and yet, it will be very theraputic.

My Rodeo Date turned into a real jerk. Showed me so little respect that I find it hard to write. I know that his actions are about him, and not me - even if he would like to blame me. One of my friends thought that he might call today and apologize, but so far he hasn't. I don't know that he will. Pretty rude to take someone to the Rodeo and the street dance and then not want to dance with them...not want to talk to them... want them to "mingle" and then be upset when I say "I'm leaving." Not upset enough to stop me, but upset enough to say shit to me.

It was a constant left then right. I couldn't do anything correctly. He wasn't having any fun with me, but that was because he ran into an old (lady) friend that he clearly liked and remembered the "good ole days" when she and another woman would be asking him to dance....and now they weren't. Guess he hasn't grown up??

Yes, as I text with friends and even prepare an email to him that I MIGHT send him, basically he didn't want to be at the street dance with me - and I don't feel that it had anything to do with me. Or at least not enough of me to be so rude to me.

And yet I know LOTS happens when people are feeling anxiety, haven't had enough to sleep and have drank too much. It was the worst time in my prior marriage - when we had been going and going, not enough sleep and way too much alcohol!