Tonight I write about a guy who I flirted with over a year ago. Our relationship stemmed from work; we worked for 2 different companies, though we had a common link and often worked together. All our relationship really consisted of, was sexting. We did do a few things together, and we've eaten out a couple times and I've had dinner at his house - once.
Truthfully, THANK GOODNESS it never was more. Truly, THANK GOODNESS we never even kissed.
Honestly, I was never attracted to him physically, and never could be. Though interesting how the mind can work - how I was actually attracted to his mind, his thoughts...
And we shared some common interests. Though not many.
Now, my life is taking a turn - for the better I think.
I am actively seeking not only a man in my life, to share it with, I am seeking a new career path. Making choices and taking responsibility for my life.
And as I do these - along with some realizations of this former attraction - my interest in this man is no longer there. Not that I always ever cared about the "gossip" in town, because I usually didn't. Now I don't. Which isn't to say that I don't partake, I just partake with MY friends. People I do really care about.
Anyways, the growth in all this to me, is to see, TRULY SEE, what its like to grow away from someone.
It really isn't about him, its about me.
Though things about him, definitely have contributed to the fact.
Still its about me, not him, and I'm good with that.
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