Dumbass.... Really is Stupid.

Have I written about him in this manner?

I don't know.

Set the bar too high??  Apparently so.  Little did I know!  Little did I know.

My girlfriend said, "had you hit on him at the bar, especially when you both had drank too much, no way would he have turned you down."

I replied, questioning, "so asking him to meet me for a beer was too hard?"

And she replied, "basically, yes."

Huh?

Upon pondering I stated, "I guess so.  I guess that would mean he would have to talk to me, get to know me.  Not that he can't talk, and that he can't be worthy of a conversation, that would be too much work?  Too much invested, right?"

She said, "yes."

Wow.

I have another friend who tells me, "they see you.  Independent, beautiful, smart, funny, and they are intimidated."  HUH?  They see that? in me?  Furthermore, that intimidates them?  Why? I thought that is what men wanted!

My former friend says, "put it this way:  Dumbass can't handle the interestingness that is you; it might make him seem less interesting."

I note this, I bring this up because he is dating someone.  She's nice enough, and occasionally attractive, however she isn't very lively.  My friend said, the time I talked to her, she had basically nothing to say - BO-RING.  And wow.... I certainly gave him more credit, thought he was what???? more worldly.  Yes more worldly.  (of course how would I know since I don't know him)  Didn't realize he couldn't go past, well.... "go." 


And it probably would make him less interesting.  Dating me.  Because seeing him, with her, makes him
seem
kind of boring.


And despite knowing this, realizing this, grasping this... I'm tired. Of. It. Them. I'm tired of seeing them together.  Regardless of how long it will or will not last.  I don't want to have any attraction to him, anymore. I don't.