Edward rose from the dust. I reached out to him, stating that distance is not necessarily a good enough reason FOR ME, to say "sorry, won't work." And he responded that yes, friends is possible.
For heavens SAKES...my most significant relationship started long distance and I drove CLEAR across Wyoming in VW Bug - even in bad weather!! I don't like the way it ended, and it certainly has scarred me - was it worth it? Definitely.
Pinedale - the man has infuriated me. Truly. He teases me and yet he doesn't think I will actually show up on his door in Pinedale. He picked the WRONG GIRL to say that to. Despite not quite being shut down, I guess - I still think of leaving here on a Wednesday - or early Thursday morning and SURPRISE. See what SHOCK he has. See if he will need CPR. Jackass. Yes, Jackass. I may never meet him - and at times I can really say "HIS LOSS" though sometimes it hurts. Heck, maybe I will go to Lander for the night and then onto Pinedale.... time will tell. Not this weekend or next. Jackass Jackass Jackass. He is a man of little faith, too.
So I pick myself up, put on pretty clothes and my make up for the 3rd time. And go out and be "successful." Or attempt to be.
Truly though, I don't want to CARE this much about a relationship. It CANNOT run my whole life. Ye of Little Faith. Have faith that God has a plan and its better than MY plan....
Ye of Little Faith.
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