Stay Stuck

If Geo is stuck on the interstate between here and there, he can just stay stuck!
He didn't call,
He said "no" in all the ways, except "no thanks."
I endured my ex-husband and his new wife and family, yet again.

My sister says that my ex is "uncomfortable" in normal situations; and that, sad to say, is true.  So add an uncomfortable situation, and its almost uncomfortable watching.

My ex and I, actually managed pretty good, I would say, running into each other at the most surprising moments, until he found another uncomfortable being like himself.

And then it was really odd.
Again, the three of us, now, would run into each other at the most surprising moments and instead of an "oh, hi," and pass each other quickly, they would grab hands, turn and almost run.

For a long time, I thought it was because of something they thought I WOULD DO, which for the life of me, I couldn't think what that was.  I have  never made a scene; I didn't even make a scene in public over my divorce.

Then I realized it was them.
It truly was them.
I suppose what got me, somewhat the most, is that one year they were dating, his whole family behaved the same way.
An ABOUT face had been done right in front of me, and I didn't know why.

Then they got married,
his brother & sister in law that I know rather well, became friendly again.
At any time.

I would learn, they didn't like the new wife.
MY former mother in law's opinion really doesn't count, because she likes none of the outlaws.  Her support is just as odd as his behavior. 

Maybe it wasn't that I endured them, it is that they endure me. 
Its actually kind of funny.
As I got up to go check out my "bucket" (which I didn't win), his new wife had clearly pointed me out to some other chick, as she was checking me out.  PLEASE. 

So stay stuck in Montana. 

A Wink Does Not Mean Interest

I was contacted by Geo, not necessarily by a wink,  though maybe it was.  I don't recall.

He lives over 100 miles from me, he contacted me in which ever way it was because I was pretty, I was cute. 

BUT I lived over 50 miles from him.  And he didn't have horses and he lived in a Single Wide. 

I thought he was cute, why not try?

We chatted, exchanging emails on a regular basis.  He led me to believe that he'd actually come down over 100 miles to see me.  130 miles to be exact.  MOST of it, Interstate.

So I asked him down.  He was handing out his phone number, contacting me...WHY NOT?

No sooner did that invite go out....
his wink became a blink.....
he had something in his eye....
he was worried about the weather...
then he had a JOB....
and a family......
and by gosh, he would call regardless of whether he was going to make it or not.

I wondered, for no more than a blink of my eye, just what he thought I didn't have?
I have a job,
A LIFE,
Extended family,
Who the hell did he think he was talking to?

Its almost 24 hours since his call should have comed....
The weather has turned from nice to snow,
I vaguely wonder if he's on that interstate,
Should I go look?
Or should I just stay home!

Do They Know?

A side trip, in my quest, really for love, for a partner ... partner in crime whom I plan to share the rest of my life with....

Every so often, I get a glimpse of this couple.
I don't know who they are, or their names.
I just know they walk out from the alley in which I drive - and walk out of -
and down the street in front of my house -
the very same street I walk down (usually) as I head for a walk with Stella.

Usually, though not always, they are holding hands.
Most always though, they seem to be very much at ease with each other.
It seems much like a gentle relationship,
which isn't to say there isn't passion, or deep desire.
Just an ease between them.
And they are young.
They aren't an old couple who has spent 45 years together.
So far, there are no children -
though for all I know, they aren't even married.
Ah, not that THAT is necessary (anymore).

Do they know that I see them in my windows?
Do they know that they make a nice picture?
Do they know?